Feeling Safe Through The Changes

Hey mama!

Our month journeying through the root chakra is coming to a close. How was it for you? What insights did you have? What was revealed and healed? Know that I am on this journey with you, and I too am studying myself. This is all in an effort to show up more empowered and peaceful for life and motherhood. We must do the inner work. We must look into our shadows. It’s time to walk through life more authentically.

Here are some things that came up for me. Recently I’ve been opening myself up to start living the magnificent life God has planned for me. This has required me to chip away at all the barriers and walls I’ve built up to “protect” myself. For a long time, I’ve allowed myself to play small as a way of feeling safe. I was scared of the magnitude of my own light. I now know that I have to allow myself to be seen, heard, and felt. And while I’ve made strides in this area, focusing on my root chakra revealed a major aspect I had been neglecting: how I showed up on social media. (ew, yuck, cringe!!!)

See, I had been professing I am ready to be used by God but I had put parameters around the how. I did this subconsciously of course and didn’t realize it until this month. Up until this point, I have basically shunned Instagram. I wanted nothing to do with it. I didn’t believe I needed it. The truth was I had used it as a weapon against myself for years. I used it to compare myself, to feel like a victim, and to fuel my wound of not being enough. This is why I got off years ago. And when I look at this now, I see that it is a fear of reliving that same pain that kept me away. I was limiting the ways that God could allow my magnificent life to manifest. I was keeping myself small.

I’ve been hearing the call to get back on it though. My story, my message, my work needs to be shared. He needs my presence to reach people there and I’m finally ready to answer the call. As I venture into new territory and choose to show up as the newest most authentic version of me, I am affirming that “I am safe in the present”. I know that my safety comes from within and regardless of where I am and what I am doing, I can carry that inner feeling of safety. And that’s how I’m choosing to show up on social media. As long as I stay present, I am safe showing my face. I am safe sharing my voice. I am safe letting others in. I am safe in the present and so are you.

Here’s a poem I wrote as a result of my own realizations and efforts this month to align, clear, and activate my root chakra. May it help us all move through the changes. It’s ok to feel vulnerable, raw, naked, and maybe even a little afraid. Keep going. Who said we’re meant to be comfortable anyway?

Raw

What has taken over me?

It seems that I can no longer see.

My way through must be felt.

My fears must be faced and dealt.

I am in a new place.

I have a new face.

I am only here by His grace.

I must move at a slow pace,

If I am to make it through.

The only familiar thing is You.

Everything is totally new.

Please show me what I must do.

I know I am safe in the present.

My steps are lit by the crescent.

I let go of the shell.

I break free of the jail.

I am ready to be seen.

You have wiped me totally clean.

I know I must be soft.

I release all of the old cloth.

I am grateful for the change.

I fully embrace the change.

I am happy with where I am.

Please walk with me hand in hand.

I am learning the new law.

I am naked. I am raw.